Cruise day 99 – PV

Morning weigh-in: 93kgs

  • Daily GAIN 0.1kgs / 0.22lbs
  • Total lost 19.3kg/42.46lbs

Watercheck –2.0l

Breakfast

  • oatbran porridge
  • 2x microwaved eggs
  • Cup of coffee with sweetener

Lunch

  • mini chicken breasts with homemade fajita seasoning
  • 2 tbsp fat free creme fraiche & 2 tbsp salsa

Afternoon snack

  • OMGFRELLING DISASTEROUS. 😦 Cakes and biscuits and sandwiches and crisps all left over from this afternoon’s meeting. Self flagellation will begin further down this post.

Dinner

  • Small bit of fillet steak

Exercise

  • 25 mins cycle to and from work
  • 65 mins brisk walking around the Meadows

Right.  So I know I got no walking exercise done yesterday, but I was still on my bike for 30 mins, plus I was rushing around the office like a madwoman yesterday afternoon.  I did transgress with more than 2 tolerated foods, but honestly, it wasn’t that bad.  And yet I’m still up marginally this morning.

It’s interesting that it’s happening now, at this weight.  Dave and Ruth commented a while back about False Ceilings – where one’s body recognises a previous “stable” weight, and it takes a bit of work to break through that.  Well, a previous stable weight for me was back when I was about 17 or so, and it was 93.6kg.  I remember that reading so clearly, cause it was the very first time I went all out on a diet and managed to lose about 25kgs.  I did that by eating like a bird and exercising lots.  I still remember how hard it was to fit into a wetsuit back in those days, as I was learning to scuba dive.  I also look at photos from then and think, “golly, I sure looked fat”.  I don’t know whether it was just bad hair, no makeup and zero fashion sense (seriously, I was a train wreck) or whether it was that I’d not finished growing and therefore the 93.6 was on a shorter body, so proportionally I did have a rounder face.

Anyway, I’m at the next false ceiling now, and I seem to be having a bit of difficulty getting through it.  It doesn’t seem quite so disheartening if I bear that in mind – I just need to be patient, stay on track and keep moving & eating well, and I’ll get my whoosh…

*later, following the Afternoon Snack From Hell*

That’s it.  I’ve had it with myself.  Another long, stressful day at work today, and what did I do, but what I swore I wouldn’t.  Following the board meeting at work today, I was cleaning up with my colleagues, and there were stacks of leftover biscuits, cake, shortbread, crisps, sandwiches.  I partook gluttonously of them all.  WHERE THE HELL HAS MY SELF CONTROL GONE?!  I used to be able to resist, but today, it was almost like I was chowing down on them in SPITE of myself.  Like, “take THAT, Charlotte.  You’re trying to eat well, but I’m destroying your efforts by indulging myself.”

I’m feeling pissed off at myself right now.  I’m totally out of Ketosis now.  Under any other circumstance, I’d do another few days of PP to get myself back there again, but I’m afraid that if I do that, I’m just going to perpetuate this cycle of mini-attack after mini-attack, and that’s not the POINT of this diet.  This diet is supposed to be balanced, which is why Dukan recommends all the vegetables in the first place – he’s not comfortable with a meat-only diet, there have to be vitamins in there.

So.  Back to the drawing board.  I’ve realised that I’m hardly eating salads anymore.  More of those.  More vegetables.  More water, less cordial & diet coke.  Fat free yoghurt, but not Muller Lights – they have added sugar, real sugar.  I need to look back on what I was eating and what I was doing when things were going well – that is, after all, the point of this blog and my spreadsheet.

But most of all, more self control.  There’s another event at my work tomorrow, and almost guaranteed, there will be leftover tray bakes and sandwiches.

I must, above all, resist these things, or I’m never going to be able to get back into my good habits again.

Seriously, what’s WRONG with me?  This past 10 days have been seriously difficult, and I’m losing traction on my motivation.

10 responses to this post.

  1. Hi Charlotte!
    You’ll be sure to get lots of encouragement on the blog, but it sounds like you need some help to get back on track.

    We think that you have done really well, but it is a long time, and there’s a long time yet to go. So you fell right off the wagon, so what? Pick yourself right back up and get right back on right now, right? y’hear?

    OK, we agree that you have a false ceiling to break through. Dukan writes of this sort of thing, and in fact this basic concept underpins the final ideal weight — a weight to while you will naturally drift up and down forever. A memorised plateau. That makes it a real toughie to break through. Dukan’s entire method depends on you reaching your target and holding this target for as long as possible to force it to become a memorised stable weight. Some reckon the longer you stayed at a particular weight, the longer to break through it will be.

    He suggests that this is the time you up your exercise and drop your tolerateds completely in favour of doing the diet at its strictest.

    That’s all we have ever been able to find other than it can take a month or two and so most people can lose heart and write the diet off as useless. It’s a mental AND physical test of your commitment. You have to stick it out. PV then PP then PV… left-right-left-right until your loss starts again.

    You might not have a false ceiling — or it may not be a long time to break through. That is still an option; it’s too soon to tell really, all we have to go on is that you remember a previously long-term stable weight.

    OK so you fell off the wagon — that breaks you mentally and carbs are incredibly addictive, so it can become a slippery slope. Point being that if you give in and have a biscuit, you will be way more likely to give in again — especially if you get away with it (and Dukan’s is a very forgiving diet).

    We are finding consolidation difficult because of this very thing. We have a huge celebration meal — say an Indian takeaway and a bottle of red. Next thing you know, we are craving things and being seriously tempted by things we would never have blinked at during cruise! It really is a mind-screw at times.

    The answer is to stick as rigidly to Dukan’s book as you possibly can. You cannot purge out the carbs you ate by going mental in a gym; it doesn’t work like that. It’s not calories in calories out, it is the type of calories, calories from carbs are easiest and fastest to turn to fat reserves than fat or protein. Dukan warns that your body will try to squeeze as much fat storing value from whatever you eat that it will be like eating double calories when your metabolism is in that mode.

    Ooo — and one wee thing (but it is really important to us that this is clarified for everyone who reads your blog). This is not Atkins’s New Diet Revolution, so you are not aiming for ketosis, and then building up carbs on a high fat diet. Instead, with Dukan’s regime, you get oatbran, which is digestible carbs (i.e. not roughage aka dietary fibre aka unavailable carbohydrate), you also get veg, and it’s low fat. I think a lot of people read the word “ketosis” at meaning burning body fat, but in truth your body does it all the time without being in a ketogenic state. To get to ketosis, you go through various stages, and it takes some time. Most medical professionals understand ketosis to be a dangerous condition. It is to be avoided at all costs as it has serious long-term health problems associated with it, and is life-threatening. It is the biggest attack on Atkins’s first diet phase, even though Atkins wanted his slimmers to reach ketosis and then to immediately begin adding in the carbs to get the readings. Atkins reckons it ought to take a few days and certainly never more than a week (however, people tended to just do the first phase alone, simply to lose weight fast, and to try to stay in ketosis for weeks until target weight is reached, lots got seriously ill). Sorry to go on, but we had to clear that one up as thinking that Dukan is advocating ketosis is a no-no.

    Sorry sorry sorry again if this seems somewhat over the top!

    Bottom line, anyway, always seems to be to re-read Dukan, stick as close as you can to the regime (and I mean really close), and grit your teeth and try to stick out plateaux — never give up!

    And remember, we’re really really rootin’ for you!
    DAVE AND RUTH
    (who have maintained the same weight now for over a month on consolidation)

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    • Wow, D&R – this comment deserves a blog post of its own!!

      “We have a huge celebration meal — say an Indian takeaway and a bottle of red. Next thing you know, we are craving things and being seriously tempted by things we would never have blinked at during cruise! It really is a mind-screw at times.”

      Yes, I hear you on that. Carb-eating breeds more carb-eating. not good.

      As for Ketosis – I thought the goal of any low-carb diet is to get into a ketonic state. Dukan says in his book that we’ll get bad breath from this diet, which is normal. Bad breath is one of the most obvious signs of being in ketosis, I thought? So although he never says the word “ketosis,” it’s kinda implied.

      But anyway, that’s all beside the point. What I need to do is just stick to the diet, and nothing but the diet, and forget about all these things like ketosis and grams of carbs and calories etc. It’s not about any of that, it’s about only eating the foods that Dukan has prescribed.

      And that’s what I intend to do. I managed to get through the day today, and not touch a single bad thing. I’m going to Pizza Express and I’ve already decided what I’m having (Pollo Verdure, yum!!) and I’m going to change over to a 2xPP:2xPV cycle, so that I can make better use of leftovers, especially veggie leftovers.

      Thanks again for the pep talk – you guys are fabulous. Have you heard about the Scottish Gathering of Dukaneers (SGODs)? We’re gonna all get together (I think there’s four or five of us, mostly from Simon’s forum) and we’d love to see you guys too! I’ll send you details when I know more. 🙂

      Cxx

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  2. Wow Dave and Ruth!!! It’s amazin what you wrote! And soo true! Charlotte you have a great support team right there! You can do it Charlotte. YOU CAN DO IT! 🙂

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  3. Posted by Jeanette on September 23, 2010 at 7:38 am

    Yes Charlotte – you can! Think of all the people you are inspiring and who follow your blog. We are only human too and we fall off the wagon as well. the most important thing is get back on there and keep going.
    Maybe before you go clear away stuff in the office or before you go near that food – eat something! And eat loads of it! so that you are far too full of protein and veg to even feel like eating that sugary carby stuff.
    Just and idea – we are all rooting for you.
    xxx

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    • That’s excellent advice – I need to have more Dukan Friendly snackfood nearby. As for the stuff in the office – I just need to remain strong, cause it’s communal stuff and people will pout if we get rid of it… 😉

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  4. Ditto to all the comments above!

    You know you can do it as you have already achived so much. Also, who will motivate me if you give up now?

    Chin up and onwards and downwards.
    XX

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  5. You are all brilliant people – excellent advice all. I actually woke up this morning a) feeling more motivated and determined to not touch the rubbish food at the meeting today and b) actually down a bit on the scales.

    Thank you all so much for your encouragement! And for the slap-downs too. Sometimes I need a good slap…

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  6. Phew. that went down better than expected *squint*!
    Yeah, we know about the ketosis thing because we fell into the same trap and got slapped down by those-who-know-about-these–things, so we were just passing on that bit of “karma”.

    Hey, the good thing about Dukan is that it does not punish nor judge you. In fact (unlike the other slimming diets), it allows for mistakes and the human factor.

    So. Live your life. Do The Dukan, Easy.

    Soon you will be nekkid dancing like a skinny snoopy. Now there’s a goal right there. Can you resist?

    It would be mad to meet up, but hey why not if we can arrange a few more-shy friends that have started doing all this, all the better!
    DAVE AND RUTH
    “living the dream”

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