Posts Tagged ‘Transgression’

Day Four – Attack

Morning weigh in: 97.2kg

Daily GAIN 0.3kg / 0.66lbs
Total loss 1.7kg / 3.74lbs

Watercheck 1.8l including tea and sugarfree cordial.


  • 2 x microwaved eggs
  • Oatbran porridge


  • 3/4 of a Tesco roast chicken, no skin
Afternoon snack
  • Fat free peach Activia with artificial sweeteners
  • Mini babybel light


  • A pure protein version of the kung pao chicken on my Fave Recipes page.  I put in the spring onions and garlic, but no peanuts.  I did use a little veggie oil though.
  • 2x chocolate shaper puddings (fat free with artificial sweetners.  I really need to work out how to make these myself!)


  • 35 mins cycling to and from work, and to the Tesco at lunch time
  • 27 mins brisk walking around the Meadows

Hurray, I got my walk in today!  It was mostly a good day, apart from those chocolate puddings.  They have artificial sweetener in them, but they do have a bit of real sugar too, not good.

I’m not fussed about the weight being up a bit today – Monday weigh ins are always higher than weekend ones, just cause I weigh myself about 3-4 hours later on weekends – that in itself is enough to make me shed a few hundred grams, not to mention my … ahem … my mid-morning toilet break.  Here’s hoping tomorrow morning is better. 🙂

Day Three – Attack

Morning weigh in: 96.9kg

Daily LOSS 0.5kg / 1.1lbs
Total loss 2kg / 4.4lbs

Watercheck 2.5l including tea, diet coke, water and sugarfree cordial.


  • 3 x microwaved eggs (need extra energy for roller derby this afternoon
  • Oatbran porridge


  • 3 mini kabana sticks (didn’t want to be full for training)


  • A few bites of stirfried Beef in black pepper sauce (a failure. I accidentally used tablespoons of baking soda rather than teaspoons. Oops…)
  • 3x microwaved eggs
  • 3 slices of ham
  • 2x fat free chocolate puds with sweetener.  I was HUNGRY after derby practice, and bummed that my beef didn’t work.


  • 2 hours roller derby training (omg the paaaaaiiiiin)
  • 20 mins brisk walking

Oh wow, derby was tough today.  I think my wheels are in urgent need of cleaning/replacing, and it felt like every lap of the track was a humongous effort.  I have plans this week to take off all my wheels, pop out the bearings, and give everything a good clean.  I was sitting on the track today, pulling a stack of gunk (including long hair, probably belonging to the previous owner) from the axles.  If there’s that much crap just on the outside, I dread to think what’s on the inside!  I managed 16 laps in 5 minutes during the “25 in 5” trial – the goal is to get 25 laps of the track in 5 minutes – that’s one lap every 12 seconds.  Considering my first attempt was 11 laps a few weeks ago, and my wheels are crappy right now, I’m ok with that.  Next week, with cleaner bearings and potentially grippier wheels (my wheels are slipping all over the track right now) I hope to improve on that.

I also resisted drinking beer and eating nachos at the pub we go to after practice.  I drank 2 diet cokes instead, and walked home rather than getting a lift with a friend.

Unfortunately I screwed up my stirfry recipe today, and ended up putting in about 4 times more baking soda in the beef marinade than I should have done.  J and I ate maybe 8 mouthfuls each, and gave up.  Yuck.

So by that stage, after an intensive 2 hour skating session, I was hungry. I ended up overdoing the shapers chocolate puds, and had THREE eggs with dinner, yolks included.  Dukan does not recommend this due to the fat/cholesterol content in the eggs, but I popped a Xenical with them so I don’t feel so bad.  Also, there’s no history of cholesterol issues in my family.  It should be noted that Dukan doesn’t recommend using Xenical, partly on the grounds of how expensive it is, however my GP thoroughly recommends it.  Plus, prescriptions are now free under the NHS  in Scotland, so I get all my Xenical for free.  So – if you want to do Pure Dukan, or you’re just starting out so you want to make sure you know where you stand, don’t take Xenical.  It’s right for me, but it’s not for everyone – especially not the “treatment effects” if you have too much fat in a meal when you take one – eek!

Day 346 – Attack day 2 of 7

Morning weigh-in: 96kg – EEK!!

  • Total lost 16.3kg/35.86lbs

Watercheck – 3.6l – tea, coffee, water and vodka with pineapple.


  • Oatbran & flaxseed toast
  • Mug of tea
Morning snack
  • Mug of coffee with milk
  • 5 pieces of grilled chicken bites


  • 2x small grilled venison burgers
  • 2x gluten free cumberland sausages (yes, I know, they’re pork, but they’re low carb!)
  • grilled chicken bites

Afternoon snack

  • Vanilla Muller Light (Tolerated #1)


  • 2x small grilled venison burgers (the Highland Game type)
  • Some vodka with pineapple juice.  I never said I was perfect.


  • 25 mins cycling to and from work
I can definitely feel myself shedding excess water today.  Especially if the trips to the toilet all day were any indication – then again, I did end up drinking almost 4 litres of liquid, and 1.5l of that was plain ol’ water with no low-cal cordial added, which is a good thing.
I ended up not going for my walk today, cause a friend had asked me to help re-hem a shirt of hers to make it shorter, so my evening was a bit chewed up.  We did manage to create a much more wearable dress (my friend is practically hobbit-sized…)
Anyway, further in and further up! 🙂

Day 336 – Cruise PV

Morning weigh-in: 94.7kg

  • Total lost 17.6kg/38.72lbs

Watercheck – 1.5l – tea, water and low calorie cordial.


  • 3x microwaved eggs
  • Mug of tea


  • Leafy green salad (forgot the chicken!)

Afternoon snack

  • Chocolate shapers pudding
  • Lemon muffin. I wish it was of the oatbran variety, but it wasn’t.


  • Chicken breasts dry fried with Jamaican Curry seasoning
  • Very very naughty – 2x Tunnock’s chocolate wafer bars. *sigh*


  • 25 mins cycling to and from work
  • 20 mins roller skating

I’m baaaack! Sorry for the terribly long time between posts, people.  I’d actually started writing a handful of  posts, but never got around to finishing them.  Life has been buuuussssy! Plus (as some people have rightly guessed) I have not been Doing The Dukan very well recently – I’ve kinda been all over the place, as today’s food diary shows.

I have been totally getting into sewing recently – making a whole stack of new clothes, because I’m a big fan of wrap dresses and there are NONE in stores right now.  Plus I hate the colours that are on the racks this season.  I must post some photos with my new outfits, all of which I will be wearing in Paris NEXT WEEKEND!  I have been, in fact, kinda obsessed with making new clothes.  It came to my attention recently that everything in my wardrobe was either too big for me, or was falling apart/getting worn through.  Even if I could afford new clothes, there’s just NOTHING in the stores that makes me happy, but the dresses I’ve been making for myself have been just SO satisfying.  Plus, I love the fact that when (and it will happen, eventually) I am back on a proper weight-loss downwards slope, I’ll have the skills to a) alter my own clothes to fit and b) make more! 🙂

The other thing that’s been drawing my attention away from this diet (because it is a very high-maintenance  diet if you ask me) is that I’ve also been going a bit mental around Roller Derby.  If you know nothing about Roller Derby, go rent the Drew Barrymore film, Whip It.  Anyway, I’m in training to join my local league – they have a 14-week “Fresh Meat” course to try and teach people all the things they need to know in order to actually be eligible to join the league.

Oh. My. God.  My first Fresh Meat session was two Sundays ago, and it was one of the most terrifying things I’ve ever had to do.  I’ve not skated since I was about 12, and my centre of gravity has definitely shifted upwards since then. I fell SO many times.  On my arse. On my hips.  On my knees & hands (though those falls were supposedly controlled, we were practising them.) Fortunately a lot of protective gear is compulsory – all the way up to the mouthguard.  I was bruised.  I was shaken. I wasn’t sure I had it in me to be a Roller Girl.

The day after Fresh Meat, I could barely walk for two days.

But then I put my skates back on every day and practiced.  I went to an informal training night almost a week later, and suddenly realised that I could skate without the deathly fear of falling over.

Now I’m loving it.  I’m starting to be able to skate a bit better, and though my muscles are sore after every training session, I know that each time, I can do a little bit more.  I never thought I could sweat that much either though.  When I finally take my helmet off at the end of a training session, my hair feels like I’ve just got out of the shower, and my elbow and knee pads come off with a sodden “slurp” – ugh.

One thing I really love about it is the people – all these awesome, daring, independent women (Roller Derby is an all-female sport) who aren’t afraid to be different, and to whom the word “weird” or “geek” have no meaning.  I feel totally at home with them.  I dunno, maybe it’s the camaraderie that goes with joining a team sport – I’ve never done team sports before. About the closest I’ve been to being in a team has been being in the Melbourne Youth Orchestra throughout my teens, and then various rock bands after that through my 20s.

Anyway, I’d better stop rambling, or I’ll never publish this post.  J is telling me off for staying up too late – g’night! 🙂

More updates soon – maybe after Paris.

Day 311 – Cruise PP

Morning weigh-in: 95.0kg

  • Total lost 17.3kg/37.06lbs

Watercheck – 1.5l – not enough!


  • Oatbran porridge
  • Mug of tea

Morning snack

  • Mug of coffee
  • chocolate shapes delight pudding (the sugar & fat free kind)


  • 2 large chicken breasts dry-fried with nandos piri piri marinade and a little jamaican curry seasoning
  • 2 weight watchers fruit yoghurts (lower in carbs than even plain yoghurt – how is that possible?)

Afternoon DISASTER



  • 2 rashers of grilled bacon without the fat
  • 3 mini chipolata sausages (the Co-op ones are lowest in carbs)
  • 3 mini chicken kebab skewer
  • 4 gin and slimline tonics


  • 25 mins cycling to and from work
I feel like a total failure today.  I’ve been sick the past couple of days (again?! All sorts of nasty bugs are making their rounds of the office) and congested sinuses don’t make me the best Dukaneer the world has ever seen.  I was doing well all day (apart from the choc pudding which is a little high in carbs, but I was sick) and then I was left by myself in the office.  I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again – solitude is an absolute trigger for me.  It had been a stressful, busy day at work where I felt like I was stretched thin (if only!) with the amount of people wanting some of my time –  and the triple whammy of being sick, being alone (so noone could witness my transgression) and feeling stressed, lead me to pig out on the biscuits in the cookie jar in the kitchen at work.
I’m not feeling up to walking this evening, even though it’s a gorgeous evening, which makes me feel even more like a failure.
Here is your cue to give me a kick up the arse.  Somebody, please, kick my butt for me! 😦

Day 297 – Cruise PP

Morning weigh-in: 93.8kg

  • Daily LOSS – 0.6kgs / 1.32lbs
  • Total lost 18.5kg/40.7lbs

Watercheck – 2.5l – tea, 1.5l of pure water, and a diet coke


  • 3x microwaved eggs
  • mug of tea

Morning snack

  • Mug of tea
  • 1x moist vanilla muffin with cocoa and cinnamon


  • mini chicken breast fillets
  • 2x grilled venison burgers
  • 1x moist vanilla muffin with cocoa and cinnamon

Afternoon disaster trifecta

  • bar of chocolate
  • jam donut
  • small bag of crisps


  • 2x grilled venison burgers with a little cheese melted on top


  • 25 mins cycling to and from work

I come to you with the most ashamed, sheepish expression on my face.  I was doing so well.  I’m down 1.5kg over the past week, and then this afternoon happened.

They left me all alone.  In the office, I mean.  It’s one of my triggers, solitude.  That, and cinemas and travelling.  They always drive me to want chocolate, pastries and crisps, and today was no different.  Bit by bit, people drifted out of the office for the afternoon – off to meetings, off to travel across the country, off home cause they only work till 3pm.

From 3pm till 5pm, I was all on my own.  And I wantonly, wilfully took away my almost-perfect week, and flushed it down the drain along with the last of my dignity.

The fact that I’m still in a fair amount of pain after BMF hasn’t helped things any.  Seriously, it’s a cliche, but I have muscles hurting that I didn’t even know could hurt.  If I didn’t know better, I’d think that I had something like appendicitis, the abs pain is so strong.  And it’s not just one muscle in my arms – it’s all of them.  This is what my friend was talking about when he said that weights training on machines is no good, cause it isolates your muscles.  There was nothing isolationary about the way my muscles got worked on Tuesday, cause all of them hurt.  Yes, ALL of them.

I’m whining, I know.  I’m sorry.  I’m just feeling sorry for myself.  I mostly can’t wait for the pain to go away so that I can go back to BMF again…

Anyway, enough whinging.  That’s not very stiff upper lip, is it, what? To atone for my afternoon disaster today, I’m doing an extra PP day tomorrow, and then signing up officially for BMF before next Tuesday’s class.


Day 278 – Cruise PP

Morning weigh-in: 93.9kg

  • Daily GAIN 0.8kgs / 1.76lbs
  • Total lost 18.4kg/40.48lbs

Watercheck – 2.3l – diet coke, tea, and water.  This doesn’t include all the alcohol I had later on.


  • 2x microwaved egg
  • oatbran porridge
  • cup of tea

Cinema snacks

  • 1 popcorn
  • some ben & jerrys fro-yo


  • 2x chicken nandos chicken breasts


  • three fruity cocktails


  • 15 min walk to the cinema

I did a massive movie marathon at the cinema today, catching up on all the films that I nearly missed out on, and getting good use out of my Unlimited card at Cineworld.  I managed to fit three films in over the course of an afternoon/evening –  Rango (meh), The Adjustment Bureau (awesome), and True Grit (pretty good).

I wasn’t too fussed by the jump on the scales today – I’m a day late on my period, and a massive jump like that (without having eaten pizza or massive amounts of bread) can only mean one thing – I’m about to enter that time of the month. Sure enough, by halfway through my movie marathon, I was reaching for the painkillers against the onset of the first cramps.

I never judge myself too harshly on the first day of my period, I have to say.  The pain’s enough to have to go through without having to bear the guilt of the extra food that I feel is my right as a woman in pain.  Hence the popcorn and icecream at the cinema. It’s one day, and I’m delicate.

Same with the cocktails.  The cramps had really kicked in by the time I’d come home from the cinema, and a bit of booze does actually help with the pain…

Day 267 – Cruise PP

Morning weigh-in 92.6kgs

  • Today’s LOSS: 0.5kg / 1.1lbs
  • Total lost 19.7kg/ 43.34lbs

Watercheck – 1.9l


Morning snack

  • Mug of tea on arrival at work
  • 4 chocolate biscuits – my total weakness


  • 2 packets of Chicken Fridge Raiders, heated up in the microwave
  • 4 slices of cheddar cheese
  • a little tomato sauce

Afternoon snack

  • A whole packet of jaffa cakes… *ashamed face*


  • 3 microwaved eggs
  • 1 slice of cheddar cheese
  • 5 chipolata sausages
  • 1 vanilla fat free Activia


  • 25 mins cycling to and from work
  • 60 mins walking around Arthur’s Seat at lunchtime

After lunch, I was feeling very well exercised, I can tell you. We had very little Dukan Friendly stuff in the fridge in the evening, and I ended up eating a dinner which was waaaay too high in fat (especially considering all the carbs I’d had in the afternoon) and I didn’t even remember to take a Xenical with it.  Ooops.

I’m still finding things incredibly difficult recently. At least I’m managing to hold the weight steady, but dammit! I really want to break through this and get back on track.

J and my plan to schedule meals and share the load a bit more isn’t going so well.  We need to work on that, I think.


Day 263 – Cruise PP

Morning weigh-in 93.4kgs

  • Today’s GAIN: 0.4kg / 0.88lbs
  • Total lost 18.9kg/ 41.58lbs

Watercheck – 1.7l – water and tea only



  • 350g grilled chicken thigh with carribean curry seasoning

Afternoon snack

  • 6 chocolate biscuits


  • 3 slices of pizza
  • about 5 un-named cocktails


  • 35 min cycle to and from work via an awesome booze shop
  • at least an hour bustling around at work, tidying stuff up

OK, I know.  Pizza, chocolate, cocktails. In principle, I’m no doing so great, but there’s something about today that makes me not too guilty, like I’ve done alright.  I can’t put my finger on it.  Maybe it was the fact that I’ve totally succeeded in cutting diet coke and diet squash out of my life this week (thanks Ros!) and that I’ve drunk so much pure, straight water.  Maybe it was the fact that even though I had pizza, I only had 3 slices – for a pizzaholic like myself, that’s one helluvan achievement.  I’m usually the kind of person to just go, “gobble gobble gobble” until there’s no more pizza, but three slices was enough.

Anyway, a big weekend coming up – I’m going to watch my first Roller Derby bout tomorrow, I’m SOOOO FREAKING EXCITED!!

Day 262 – Cruise PV

Morning weigh-in 93.0kgs

  • Today’s LOSS: 0.6kg / 1.32lbs
  • Total lost 19.3kg/ 42.46lbs

Watercheck – 2.1l – water and tea only


Morning snack

  • Mug of tea
  • 4 chocolate biscuits


  • Chicken salad with lettuce, capsicum, cherry tomato, spring onion and goats cheese with a low fat honey mustard dressing

Afternoon snack

  • another 4 chocolate biscuits (at least)
  • Strawberry fat free Activia


  • Chicken vegetable soup
  • Strawberry Muller Light


  • 25 min cycle to and from work

Not much to report.  I was bad.  I ate biscuits.  I forgot about Paris.

I did, however, restrict my liquid to cups of tea and water. No diet coke.

Expecting jump on the scales tomorrow from all those biscuits.


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