Day 233 – Come clean time…

Morning weigh-in 94.8kgs – Christ almighty no!

• Total lost 17.5kg/ 38.5lbs

Watercheck – Not enough

Breakfast

• Oatbran Porridge
• Mug of Tea

Morning snack

• packet of cooked ham

Lunch

• Cheese ploughman sandwich

Afternoon grazing

• Chocolate biscuits
• Madeira cake slices x3
• Handful of grapes
• handful of kettle chips
• bucket load of shame

Dinner

• 400g chicken with Nando’s marinade.

Exercise

• 25 mins cycling to and from work
• 1 hour walk around the Meadows

Something Dave & Ruth said to me in the comments today, scared the crap outta me.  “You have to flatline ASAP if you are not going to regain all you lost.”

OMG what if that happened? Most people who lose a lot of weight put back on all the weight plus a bit more within like, 2 years of stopping their regime.  What if that happened to me? I can’t bear to think about it – that insidious creep up of the numbers on the scales, each time a little bit depressing, but each one incremental enough to not scare me too much.

I looked into the future today, and got scared – especially following all the crappy food I ate today, leftovers from the meeting that was on this afternoon.  I used to be able to resist all that crap.  And the fact that I didn’t today? Made me scared – hella scared.

So I got home this evening, put on my trainers, and went for my normal old 1 hour walk around the Meadows.  I played my music loud.  I stopped halfway through my walk (once the Violet Sedan Chair album ended) and created a new Spring In My Step playlist, which I’m going to refine over the next week – an hour of happy, bouncy music to put a smile on my face, cause I’m sick to death of my old playlist.  Then I kept on walking, zig zagging around the Meadows, stretching out the muscles and working away the Winter Blues.  And y’know what? It felt great.

After that, I cooked up some chicken breast for J and myself, and I’m planning on getting an early night.

Thanks to Dave and Ruth.  Thanks to recent de-Lurker Catherine for reminding me that just because I’ve done badly in a day, doesn’t give me leave to continue as I started. Those two perfect comments sent me on my walk this evening. 🙂

And thanks also to Bella and Holly for their comments – it’s nice to know that I’m not alone guys! 🙂

My fave walking tracks

Great disco tracks for a good walking pace

1. YMCA – The Village People. A nice brisk pace without feeling like you’re having to push it.
2. Canned Heat – Jamiroquai: I love this song so much – reminds me of that great dance scene in Centre Stage
3. I Gotta Feeling – Black Eyed Peas: If you’ve not yet seen the live Black Eyed Peas concert with Oprah Winfrey, you gotta go check it out on Youtube like, NOW! And you’ll love this song foreverafter, if you don’t already.
4. Shake Your Groove Thing – Peaches & Herbs: This is always the one that I feel I need to start running too – it’s pretty fast for walking, so I feel a bit like I’m tripping over my toes, but if I can keep up, then it’s not a huge stretch to fall into a gentle jog.  Walking very fast after running to this feels like a breeze.
5. September – Earth Wind & Fire: A good one for warming up or cooling down – a fairly easy pace, but still brisk
6. I Love the Nightlife – Alicia Bridges: A good hip-swingin’ choon at a great pace.
7. Young Hearts Run Free – Candi Station: another good one for warming up or cooling down.
8. It’s Raining Men – Weather Girls: too fast to walk to, to slow to run to.  However, the original version by the Weather Girls has all disco soul a girl could ask for – it gets my blood pumping!
9. We Are Family – Sister Sledge: great for the end of the walk – the pace is a little slower so I can lengthen my stride and swing my hips a bit, which helps loosen me up.